hoops
02-22-2010, 09:21 PM
yes, I am blessed beyond belief for all the wonderful people and things i have in my life. I'm so blessed that after April, Tracy and I will begin searching for a house. I'm so lucky to have found the most amazing woman in the world and having her love me too. Boy, i really know how to complain. ok, as some may remember, the monday after christmas, i was walking into work and i fell in the parking lot and injured my already injured left side even worse. I took a month off and have been trying for the last month to get back to my normal schedule of three days a week. i went in this morning and within an hour i was at my max pain threshold. But i wanted to try to finish the task i was doing so i stayed another hour or so, i was hardly able to walk out of the building and drive home. the pain is tough, but that's not the problem, it's the fact that because i'm not working as much I'm not getting paid as much. as it is I live hovering around the poverty level, but I pay my bills and i am not wasteful. this is becoming more difficult because, 1) my rent went up and 2) i'm making less. not being able to work also effects my psychological situation, socialization and structure and feeling competent are important to maintaining a more level mental path. And it's not about the work I do, i can't sit or stand with any comfort for more then several minutes, the rest of the time is a balancing act of repositioning till the only position working is lying in a slant. I've been checking Drs and hospitals and the internet and surgeons. i have had three appts so far in Albany, in Poughkeepsie and in NY with the answer, "not with the placement of your adhesions, our treatment will only create more problems" I have an appt in Westchester Medical Center, the supposed, best place in NY, on Friday. I'm not getting my hopes up. I know that before too long i will be financially ok, but the rest of me, I'm not sure where I'm going. Where ever it is, I will get there and it will all work out the way it should, I have faith and trust and hope. thanks for listening, I just needed to blahh
peace
hoops
peace
hoops