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SongDragon
09-27-2008, 09:41 PM
I know some of you have been waiting for me to say… something. Anything. Perhaps you’re waiting for a write-up on the Janis Ian Picnic? Maybe a response to the amazing autobiography, “Society’s Child” by our lovely Janis Ian would also be in order, as I’ll admit it is one of the few non-fiction books I’ve read, yes? Or maybe I just owe you all an update on college life, since events at the boards seem to slide through my fingers. Glad to see that you have all been holding down the fort for me, and I hope I am able to write on them a lot more often. I have to say, I’m starting to miss posting on boards where I’m called ‘SongDragon’ because most of them are older boards that I don’t see as often, or I get there and the board already has a ‘SongDragon’. I suppose you can’t claim a name once it’s on the internet, but seeing as this name is my alter ego I need to get on here and write a little more often, since this is my voice. As little as most of you would believe it I have a remarkably difficult time saying what I mean in conversation. However it can also be difficult living up to what I’ve said previously… I never know if I’m going to look back and say, “I could have said that better!” or look back and say, “I still agree with every word I wrote.” So, all I can say is, I’ll try, as always.

First, I have to say, you have showed us, my family and I, such amazing hospitality. At the Janis Ian Picnic and on the boards—everywhere, you’ve welcomed us. Anywhere where I’ve met Rudies I’ve felt at home, happy, comfortable. The only thing I regret is that I have to pack up and head out again. And that I’m sorry I haven’t written sooner. I can’t even blame it all on technology. A lot of it has to do with losing notebooks (which I manage to do quite frequently). As I was mentioning to Kath after the Picnic I have indeed not posted some of the things I should have. Projects, essays… Most are outdated now by the things others have written, being more prompt in their write-ups than I have been, but some of the things they conveyed still need to be said. My family is also very much a part of this board. My father (under the ruse of keeping an eye on me), and my sister (still trying to get on, having issues getting a hold of the webmaster because for some reason it blocked her e-mail address, but she misses you all), a Janis Ian enthusiast since the Picnic… I think we’ve had a good effect on her.

Onto the book! I should really be covering this in paragraphs (plural), not this one, lousy paragraph… But we’ll see. There must be a word limit on the board; I can’t believe I don’t remember what it is. Does that mean I haven’t hit it yet? Anyway. Janis, your autobiography was amazing. There are so many things that make a biography of any sort much harder to write and make interesting. The least of them is that it has no dragons ruling the world. Seriously, though, I think the biggest issue in keeping your typical fantasy reader engaged in an autobiography would lie in the fact that a novel usually takes place over a period of, at most, a few years, while in an autobiography you have to keep them interested in the events of over fifty years. It’s overwhelming. Janis, you did an amazing job. Normally if a book disinterests me at all I wind up putting it down for life always meaning to ‘come back to it’ sometime. It helps that you had an eventful life, though I am sorry for that at the same time. The final thing was that you put just enough in there for many of us to relate with, while still having it be something far out of (my) experience. I can’t speak for everyone, but it was amazing. My father read it, a friend of his read it, and the others in my family would have read it if I hadn’t decided it was one of the books I wanted to keep in my dorm room. Peppermint said she would read it as soon as she was done with her own stack of books. So all I’m going to say, so that I can avoid spoilers, or repeating myself too many times is that it was a great read.

As for the Janis Ian Picnic? It, too, is something that I should dedicate paragraphs and paragraphs to, but of course that would be if I was to write down every minute detail… Something I should teach myself not to do, since this might end up being longer than three pages if I’m not careful. As I mentioned earlier, the hospitality was amazing. The wonderful craziness of the Rudies should be the stuff of legends. Peppermint (a.k.a. Caroline if you were at the Picnic) and I were counting down the days, hours, and minutes until we could leave. At the very last it actually ended up being me that held us up. Almost forgot my camera, again. If there were Rudie Awards, like there are Frosh Awards in Residences, I would probably win ‘most likely to forget a camera at the most important times’. That almost ended up being me again. My sister was driving; she actually did most of the driving since it was a nice time to teach her about night driving and highway driving with no traffic. Oh, didn’t I mention? We left the house at two forty-five a.m. Ordinary for us silly night owls, though it really wiped us out by the time we got there. We also got lost in Pittsburgh, since we also tend to do the whole ‘oh, I know where I’m going, so I can just follow street signs’ routine. Which hardly works in downtown Pittsburgh, it’s so torn up with construction and detours. Have you already figured out we’re not from the city? Us too. You can expect me to make a fool out of myself, also, and I did as soon as I got there. I had to ask Randy who he was. Dar, at least, I recognized right off the bat. I should since I’ve met her twice before now, though. Karen I also recognized, thank goodness. When Janis went over to say hi to Caroline (Peppermint) I was afraid she thought she was me. Whatever happened, it was very clear Peppermint wasn’t me, and Janis introduced herself (aw, that was my job!).

I was so out of it that afternoon that I didn’t even know about the book signing until Elliot and Gisli told me. I jumped in with them, gave my sister and Dad the directions, and we took off. Of course not having directions, we arrived last… Oops. Silly Song. Teleportation is still a little bit beyond my powers. Still, we made it. It was fun. I got my book signed, was sent on a random mission to locate a Janis Joplin biography to see if she would sign it (where I was informed that, had I found it, she certainly would have, “I’ll sign anything.” Though I think she mentioned a few things she tended to avoid signing, too). After that I began jumping down people’s throats at the possibility of regrouping and going to eat, since I hadn’t had anything since breakfast, and even then it wasn’t much. I was off the walls the day of the picnic. I wasn’t quite sure where I wanted to be. It was so hot that I almost didn’t wear my Janis Ian shirt, but with the scarce amount of clothing I had packed I wasn’t given much of a choice. When we got there it was amazing. It was small, rural, and beautiful. There were so many Rudies, the barbecue was wonderful (thank you Redjack), and the jamming, singing, and just general music was fun. The volleyball game was fun, too. Crazy Agnes, Eva, Peppermint, Dar, Peggy and the rest of us. They all had to put up with the fact that if the ball came at me I was equally as likely to throw my arms over my head and duck for cover as I was to hit it, and my attention in the game would wander. Wendy’s art was amazing, and the auction was hilarious. I slept well that night (after a good shower to get the dirt off my feet). That night, and breakfast the next morning a bunch of us said goodbye. I would have liked to stay a little longer, but we agreed we really shouldn’t repeat the all night driving experience of the arrival trip. Still, I would have liked to have had more time with the quiet Agnes, hiding behind the grill all night, and that silly, saucy Captain Redjack. Another time. We all went home happy, to pack for school again.

School is going to have to wait for my reply post to this. This is getting to be an essay, and I know how most of us feel about reading essays. Besides, it’s a weekend, I’m not supposed to be doing anything productive on weekends. Just as a quick touch-up, though: Being a New Student Orientation Leader made me more social than I ever thought I would be, it was fabulous! The cat shelter is doing well. I work there on Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays, despite almost getting scared away by the fact that we had sixty-four cats when I first came in this summer (we are technically made for about twenty-five). Classes are good, especially social psychology, though research is probably the dullest class for any psychology major. My roommate and I still love each other (except for the one time she thought she turned off her alarm and she had actually just hit the snooze button, and it started going off again and she didn’t hear it, but me being the light sleeper that I am… you can see where this ends). I have so many anecdotes. In case I forget, remind me to tell you about the Boston Pizza trip for NSOLs and RAs. It’s worth it, I assure you. Also, I have to stop being so cheeky. While I was writing this Julia came in, looked over my shoulder, and said, “You’re an amazing writer.” And, being cheeky, I said, “I know.” Ouch. I got smacked for it. So I hope she’s right, since she only saw a tiny bit of it. I did say thank you after that… Really… Though Leah, my roommate, laughed at me, too. I hope this all covers the gist of it all, and leaves me in the clear for catching up on writing to you all after this. Take care, lovely Rudies!

coffeegyrl
09-27-2008, 10:41 PM
wow Song, that was quite a lot to digest. I admire you for being so open and willing to share yourself with us. I'm good at being a gregarious joker but I'm really kinda scared to reveal very much about myself. Maybe I can take some lessons from you.

Eva
09-28-2008, 04:25 AM
Song, as you know, English isn't my first language. And sometimes I just don't read long pieces because it's just too tiring for me. But I have read your entire post and I think it is beautiful indeed. I had no trouble reading it from beginning to end and that isn't because your wording is easy so 'even' someone who's English isn't perfect can read it. That's not it. Your description is lively and filled with emotions. It's very attractive to read it. Actually it is hugely readable ;) Thank you for keeping us filled in on your life. Big hug Dragon!

Eva

SongDragon
09-28-2008, 11:13 AM
Coffeegyrl, don't be afraid to share! For me it is so easy to share while writing, though my friends do like to tease me, since I tend to post 'books' at a time. That's just volume one, after all. I'll admit I had a lot to get out there. My posts aren't quite that long, usually, because I know if I see a long post it will take me a while to respond to it.

I'm glad it was easy to read, Eva. And, although English may not be your first language, you speak (and write) it beautifully. You are also more likely to know more about the English language than I am, since you learned it as a second language. English is not properly taught in highschools, I am sorry to say (now I sound like an old fogie), and I learned the most about English in my second year of Latin.

Oh yes, Boston Pizza anecdote: The Resident Assistants and New Student Orientation Leaders went out to Boston Pizza as a sort of happy fling before the new students arrived. Well, my RA is also a good friend, Connor. Sweetest guy. He's a runner. We have a lot of good stories about him from that night... But anyway, I get a bit overwhelmed by the closeness of people and I take a walk. Everyone else from my table (all NSOLs) are getting dinner. Previously Boston Pizza, as a gesture of hospitality, gave us all two free drink tickets (only draft or highball for of-age people, non-alcoholic drinks for those not of age). I was prepared for this and got out my ID (yes, I got funny stares), and got a rum and coke. While all of us were gone the RAs of our building (including Connor) stole our table. We all came back and laughed at them, and then Connor finally pipes up, "I guess I need to give Leah back her pop." And Leah just lifts her eyebrows, she didn't have pop. Neither she nor Connor are of age. I suddenly realize what went on and say, trying to keep the smirk off my face, "Hey Connor, may I have my rum and coke back?" It was hillarious, especially since the alcohol was easily tasted in it. We're never going to let him forget that. Never leave your drink unattended or you may wind up getting the RAs drunk!

Anyway, that was a great kickoff to the year. Miss you all, still, since I'm about to have midterms and so will probably not be on as often. Frightening. I still have to cover Frosh Week, Guitar Hero etc, and clubs. I'm really not giving myself much time to breath this year, but be that as it may I'm having an absolute blast. Take care.

~Song

Randy & Betty in Pa
09-28-2008, 12:12 PM
Ahhhhhhhh Dear Fiend SongDragSTER....

Reading your post I think back several years when this 17 year old kid signed onto the board... So long ago.... Don't you let anyone tell you your not a quality person... Over the years you've taught me a lot about me... And meeting you was really "neat" (Bet you don't hear that alot!!! Some olde phartes say it from time to time...) Your an important part of our rudie klump and Betty and I both REALLY enjoyed meeting you and your (evil????) Twin Caroline & Dad...

We hope to see you up at the Londonderry New Hampshire concert in November.... In any case... stay safe, stay happy and keep your "song" alive...

Best to all of the Songdragster family!!!!

R & B from Pa...

gisli
09-28-2008, 12:33 PM
Wow thanks for the post it was nice reading it and meeting you and all the other Rudies plus Her Majesty.

Of course it did have its down-effects such as killing the rascal in me......but that will change in a short while.......well in the next two weeks or so....or shortly after my trip with The Hells Angels:p

Ps It was Elliotts fault that we missed all the right turns and ended up last at the book signing............he should have mentioned, you know, that a U-turn is not the same as a Circle-turn.
Best to your sister and dad, your dad is such a greater.

dragonlady
09-28-2008, 12:44 PM
Nice to hear from you little dragon...I remember being busy, busy, busy in college...take care of yourself and say hi often.

Let Peppermint know that dragonlady and changeling would love to hear how things are going in Roanoke as well.

missing you both,

-di

Bat
09-28-2008, 01:51 PM
Wow! We don't hear from you forever, then all of a sudden it's like the dam bursts and we are flooded with your delightful words of prose.
Sounds like you are really in the swing of things this year, a big change from a year or so ago when you were pretty timid about getting your feet wet in the social stream! That's great!
(I hope you don't decide to write your Autobiography after 55 years of eventful living...it would rival the Encyclopedia Britannica with an addendum the size of the Unabridged Dictionary!...on second thought, it would be a fascinating read, even if it did take 2 years to get through it!:D )

It was wonderful meeting you, too, Song...you, Peppermint, and Dad are a lovely family. And Dad, if you are reading this, don't be a Lurker...come on and join the Klump; I'm sure you have a lot to add to this board, if you want to...the invitation is always open!

Peppermint needs to pursue getting on the board...I'm sure any sign-up problems can be overcome with a little help from the Marvelous John character who always seems to come through in the toughies.

Eva
09-28-2008, 01:59 PM
I'm glad it was easy to read, Eva. And, although English may not be your first language, you speak (and write) it beautifully. You are also more likely to know more about the English language than I am, since you learned it as a second language. English is not properly taught in highschools, I am sorry to say (now I sound like an old fogie), and I learned the most about English in my second year of Latin.
Thank you for the compliment Song :) What a pity that English is not taught well at American highschools! It's the same here with Dutch though, I think. I think a lot of nations are quite careless with their languages. Lots of students that follow higher education can't spell right. I guess they are not very interested somehow. Pity, pity, pity...

Eva

Dee
09-28-2008, 02:01 PM
Good to hear from you Song. Hope Hurricane Kyle isn't too hard on you when it hits Nova Scotia tonight. Be safe!

Elliott
09-28-2008, 02:06 PM
Song.... You're such a breath of fresh air. Thanks for reminding me how much fun the weekend was. Can you believe it's been almost two months ago? The whole event was an adventure for me. And I fell in love with all the Rudies, as I suspected I might. I'm easy like that. Study hard, have fun and know I can't wait to meet you and yours again soon. Best wishes for a great semester at school. Love, Elliott

Eva
09-28-2008, 02:14 PM
And I fell in love with all the Rudies
Yeah, but mostly with me, right? :D

Eva

Bat
09-28-2008, 02:16 PM
I thought I was the only one, Eva...Elliott does have a way about him, doesn't he?
Only two months ago? Seems like yesterday, seems like forever ago...but definitely an Unforgettable Event in the life!

SongDragon
09-28-2008, 02:21 PM
Randy, I don't think I'll be able to make it to Londonderry, NH from Nova Scotia, unfortunately. I would love to go to a concert this year, but school is making even the thought ridiculous. Neat... Ah, I do believe I have heard that Randy. It was in the dictionary, marked 'archaic'.

Gisli, I'm sure the rascal and you will be fine. We didn't mean to make you behave, really!

Dragonlady, Peppermint would love to let you know how things are going in Roanoke, but unfortunately she is still unable to access the board. So... we'll see. We'll keep trying, but in the meantime she'll just read, and then ask me to post when she sees something she absolutely has to post to.

I'll have to post posts from her from time to time.

Miss you!

~Song

P.S. Leave it to me to take so long typing that the rest of you have responded before I've had half a chance. Of course we all fell in love with you, too, Elliot. Eva, I think it's because we feel our own language is second nature to us, so we forget to examine it more closely. Bat... Peppermint is trying. She has e-mailed our webmaster three times, though I hope she got the right e-mail, and has had no response. She's not even on the memberlist anymore, and while she used to be able to PM people she cannot even sign in now. I'm sure it will get worked out as soon as it's less busy around here.

Eva
09-28-2008, 02:53 PM
I thought I was the only one, Eva...
You too? :( *quivering lower lip* :( I thought I was 'special' to you Eliott...

Eva

SongDragon
09-28-2008, 07:20 PM
Hehe... Well, we're surviving the storm fine, except one girl on our floor has a leak. She's moving into our suite, onto our couch for the night. It's an old building, so it's hard to fix. Excitement.

I was not expecting this. I was expecting a quiet night of schoolwork. How is it that that never seems to happen?

~Song

Amy in Vermont
09-28-2008, 07:35 PM
one girl on our floor has a leak.

They make pills for that now.....

Sara
09-28-2008, 07:39 PM
I, too, have read your posts all the way through and enjoyed them. Thanks for the sharing. It's great to see how Janis appeals across generations as well as across continents. Just shows how well she hits on universals.

Not to sound too old-fogeyish, but for me, at least, college years were among the very best of my life -- new-found freedoms, meeting diverse groups of people, immersed in learning. Time to take in the scent of roses, despite a busy schedule. More opportunities to grow as a person. Sure beats working! You're building a treasure trove of memories for a lifetime.

Hmmm, I am starting to sound like an old fogey!

SongDragon
09-28-2008, 07:55 PM
I meant her room, Amy!

:p

I'm glad to hear that you enjoy them, Sara. All I know is that I enjoy writing them. College is wonderful, it has been the best experience for me, ever. I have so many stories. It's just that between having a social life and doing school work I never seem to get onto the messageboards anymore. I guess in some ways that's good, because I've often been scolded for spending too much time online.

So you can't come retire to my couch yet, Amy. It's in use. Just a 'by-the-way' type thought.

~Song

Randy & Betty in Pa
09-28-2008, 08:23 PM
It's great to see how Janis appeals across generations as well as across continents. Just shows how well she hits on universals.

Forgive me for slipping off topic for a second but with whats been said about Janis's concerts I would like to add that when we go to a show being and olde Pharte of 59 We (Betty and I enjoy attending a lot of concerts of various types)...I have to say that EVERY Janis concert is always an emotional experience... Not just for us but everybody in the room... Like the Saxman says..."When at a Janis concert Janis plays every song just for us" and we always enjoy the music, and the stories... The ever to brief visit with Janis and the other rudies but there are two other things that never fails to bring a smile to my face...Looking at the other people in attendence, old, young, black, white, gay, straight, alien or earthling....We were at a show somewhere (I forget where exactly) but in the seat directly behind us was a woman that I would guess to have been in her mid 40's and a young man of maybe 10 years old... I found myself somewhat distracted evesdropping on their conversation, and how the lady (probably his mother but maybe not) and the boy were connecting (It was obvious that this was a special momment in time for the both of them... Both were intensly listening and between songs and stories discussing what they had shared listening to... Comments were made by the boy like "I've never heard music like that on the radio, Billy just listens to those loud stations nothin' like this music, thats beautiful"... Then at the first note of the next song they again became silent and listened (as did every other person in the audience)... Janis seems to magically impact people of all ages... Everybody laughs, everybody cries, everybody smiles and for that moment in time cares about others...Just look at the faces of the people milling around after a show... People that have never been offered the opportunity to say hello, get an autograph and picture (even if they didn't buy anything). When these people of all ages see Janis perform they truely see someone that goes the extra mile to make them feel welcome and like they have been friends for so many years...I would venture a bet that even applies to a young boy of 10 at his first concert as well... I guess thats why there are no age limits to being a rudie...

Ok so I rambled a bit... Sorry

SongdragSTER, stay safe in the storm....

Betty and I send our very best to you all

R. from Pa

hoops
09-28-2008, 08:29 PM
song, it's good to see you back on the board. i loved your stories of life over the last 2+ months and impressions of the rudie nation. wish i had some wistful stories of school days past, but alas, i didn't go that route. enjoy your ride thru life and keep us posted on your adventures. i love reading them. don;t work too hard.
peace
hoops

Eva
09-28-2008, 09:18 PM
I was expecting a quiet night of schoolwork. How is it that that never seems to happen?
Sometimes life gets in the way. I get that a lot too. I expect to clear my livingroom of the enormous mess I have there. I expect it to happen just about every day. It never does... :o Maybe tomorrow? :confused:

Eva

SongDragon
09-28-2008, 09:52 PM
Randy, you didn't go off topic at all. And if you want to see rambling, watch a real pro! That would be me. But yes, you were right on cue. I've seen so many people connecting at Janis Ian concerts. I'm certainly not the youngest or most diverse. I just happen to be the youngest to express my thoughts continuously on this board and attend "Rudie Events". I've been young for my age and I've been old for my age. Sometimes I'm an old soul, and sometimes I'm a sugar-high kid. Whatever the case, Janis' music has always reached me. Age and other "dividers" are outside of the world of Janis' music, because they are stories and melodies that cross every border. They don't even need a passport! Amazing. Truly, truly amazing.

Good to see you, too, Hoops. I'm sure you have your own set of stories to tell. There are so many paths necessary. They don't all have to include University. Oh the adventures...

That's my problem, too! Eva, you have it in a nutshell. This mess on my floor won't pick itself up and put itself away, even though I've finished the laundry and dishes and am trying to move on quickly to homework! Harumph. I yelled at my jeans, but they didn't even roll over. Nevermind about my desk. Trying to find something there is beyond me.

~Song

Eva
09-28-2008, 09:58 PM
That's my problem, too! Eva, you have it in a nutshell. This mess on my floor won't pick itself up and put itself away, even though I've finished the laundry and dishes and am trying to move on quickly to homework! Harumph.
Exactly!


I yelled at my jeans, but they didn't even roll over.
Oh, just leave them there long enough and they'll roll over. If you leave them there very long they'll even greet you at the door when you come home.


Nevermind about my desk. Trying to find something there is beyond me.
You can still find your desk??????? :eek: Amature... pah! :rolleyes:

Eva

hoops
09-29-2008, 07:16 PM
ahhh desks,
i remember in my youth having every year in every grade a desk of my own for the moment. from kindergarten to 6th grade our desks had an open cubby of sorts in which to store books and papers. not a year or a teacher went by that didn't make a scene of the scene that was my desk with papers shoved and crumpled into any open space, so much so that books stopped fitting anymore and if they did, i'd never find them. oh the joys of humiliation, year after stifling year. it's no wonder i never went to college...lol
peace
hoops

SongDragon
09-29-2008, 09:06 PM
Yes, I can still find my desk, Eva, but that's because it takes up half my room! It's a big desk. Now if you asked if I could find any surface space on it the answer would be "no". But geographically I can find my desk. I cannot touch my desk. But I know it exists.

Hoops... I know the feeling of humiliation. I, horror of ultimate horrors, drew on my desks. It would start with this teeny tiny doodle. Then that would spread. By the end of the year my entire desk would be covered and my sleeves would come away with graphite stains. The teachers would shake their heads, yell at me, and hand me windex and a big roll of paper towels.

Not that it bothered me much. If I'm bored I still doodle, though now it's on paper. I had a teacher actually tell me it was alright once (really, she told the whole class). Someone finally understood me. I listen best while doodling. The doodling is absent-minded habit.

~Song

coffeegyrl
09-29-2008, 10:45 PM
We had this ritual in grade school. Two or three times a year everyone would empty out their desks and clean them with green cleanser and those rough brown paper towels. (am I dating myself?) We paid special attention to the surface of the desk to remove pen and pencil marks. Then everyone would pack up their desks very carefully. They would stay neat until probably the next morning.

DaveM
09-30-2008, 02:12 AM
I can't see the top of either of my desks. Do I get extra credit?

Eva
09-30-2008, 06:45 AM
Ah yes... emptying and cleaning. We had that too. I always got reprimanded because it was so messy. Nothing has changed yet... :o

Eva

Judy
09-30-2008, 08:17 AM
Song, what classes are you taking this semester?

SongDragon
09-30-2008, 01:28 PM
I am taking Statistics, Social Psychology, Research & Design Analysis, Personality Psychology, and Cults and New Religious Movements. Which means I have three three psychology courses, one math course, and an elective. However two of those psychology courses were by my choice, the third one (Research) no one would take unless they absolutely had to. As the teacher put it, "This stuff is as dry as gerbil sh*t in the desert." The cults course is interesting, since it's out of the ordinary for me, something I normally wouldn't study. It was also interesting because people would go around the room saying their religion as part of their introduction. It ranged from very religious, to spiritual, to absolutely not religious at all. On top of that both my Stats class and my Research class have a lab (labs are one and a half hours a week, classes are three hours a week). And this is a normal load. At some points last year I should have shown you my schedule, because as an engineering major you are required to overload... An odd arrangement indeed. Now you got me rambling, oops.

Coffeegyrl, I can indeed remember those rituals, and even when I was in school we had the coarse brown paper towels. Because it was cheaper, I think. Now having those cheap brown paper towels is more environmentally friendly or what not. Things keep changing while staying the same, hmmm.

That's worse than me DaveM! Last year I had two huge desks, and I could actually find the top of one of them, most of the time. Amazing, isn't it? Of course that was admittedly only with the stuff that belonged in my dormroom. If I had the reign of a house and two desks... It would be a nightmare.

~Song

Eva
09-30-2008, 06:13 PM
Social Psychology
Personality Psychology
Cults and New Religious Movements
These sound very interesting.

Eva