ah life and the exprience it brings

[hoops]

I was living in california a while back, had a wonderful girlfriend...a california life...warm and sunny. I had to come back home to NY for a a month and a half, had family stuff going on, all good, buit my girlfriend couldn't come...my family wouldn't let it happen. I stayed with Mom and Dad...dad could be very hard about my being gay, and mentally ill, but it was the fact that i was finding it impossible to get my meds that got me put back in the hospital...my insurance was only in California...not good, and not expected. so i was in a few days getting back on the meds and doing ok. they were gonna keep me just a week, since i was doing so well and it was so close to time to go back to california. my girlfriend called me everyday and two or three times a day, it was so good to talk to her. the phone rang, it was for me. "I'm sorry, You can't come back...I can;t have you come back... i don;t love you like that...anymore.I'm sorry...if i ever did, i',m not sure, just don;t come back. I'll always love you as my friend. I'm sorry, i didn't know. i didn't know. I'm sorry, don;t hate me. I know you never could. I'm sorry...goodbye."
My stuff is still there and it's been quite a few years, my favorite jacket and shoes, my camera, my...life at the time. i was in for a month. got out, started over again...long time ago. i seem to have this thing with woman and nut houses...makes me laugh, hard. I should write a book
peace
hoops

[Randy & Betty in Pa]

Hoops,

How tragic, yet you know such things tend to happen for a reason so here you are stuck with all us crazed Rudies... and we love you.... Even those of us that are less then lesbians.... Yup... Sometimes it's best to make a clean break and start over and you know all the times I've done that I speak from experience... Hoops, don't let what may have been overwhelm you... Concentrate on what will be and how you can make it better.... I mean Hoops... Why steel a 1982 Chevette when you can grab a 2007 BMW???? You dear friend are in our prayers and thoughts... Smile or else!!!!

Happy Holidays Hoops, May this be your best and most blessed year ever....

R. from Pa

[hoops]

oh my randy,
i didn;t intend to make that seem like a downer kind of thread. i just have been thinking a lot about my hospitaizations and remembering, cause i've been thinking a lot about my upcoming medical stuff, cause after the surgery anf healing, i'll have to spend some time on the inside to get weaned back onto my meds. thank you for the words of kindness and support. my head has been very full, and i thought maybe i'd share some interesting stories. tho it is true that a looney bin tends to make a bad impression on prospective wives :)
peace
hoops