hoops
07-23-2007, 06:54 PM
so today was my first day back to work since surgery more than 2 months ago. though the surgen cleared me, my office manager is still a little bit nervous and will onlylet me work three days a week and only four hours a day. no marathon of work like i am used to for sure. she's even forcing me to actually sit at my desk...i'm horrified:eek: ;) , this is just not done.
I have been attending a day program for the past few weeks that i lovingly call "crazy school" it is an excellent program to help people with mental illnesses to slowly work their way back into there life before crisis and i KNOW the psychiatrist kept me longer than necessary so i couldn't jump right back into work.
I was very excited about today and when it would finally come, until last night anyway. suddenly i felt myself get very nervous and unsure of myself. This all changed the minute i walked in the office door and met a huge hug from my office manager, she is a great lady, i'd do just about anything for her. by lunch time, i was laughing with my co-workers and felt almost like the old days and am looking forward to tomorrow.
I went for an endoscopy last week and will find out wednesday what the results of that were. this will let me know whether or not i will undergo another surgery. i really don't care either way as long as it doesn't hold me back from continuing my forward movement. it also would be nice to know if i will ever be able to eat solid food again, and whether or not i can get this feeding tube out. my 2 year old nephew accidently pulled on it the other the other day OWIE!! but i had to act as if i felt nothing so he wouldn't freak out, i've found that different ones are freaked by different things concerning this, some by my scars, some by the tube, some just because i don't eat food so i do my best not to scare anyone. this has been a bit challenging since i've finally counted up all my scars from drains. and there are 9 and two incisions brings my total to 11. and i don't remember any of it...weird. this is getting rather long so i will stop here...thank you all for your love and support
peace
hoops
I have been attending a day program for the past few weeks that i lovingly call "crazy school" it is an excellent program to help people with mental illnesses to slowly work their way back into there life before crisis and i KNOW the psychiatrist kept me longer than necessary so i couldn't jump right back into work.
I was very excited about today and when it would finally come, until last night anyway. suddenly i felt myself get very nervous and unsure of myself. This all changed the minute i walked in the office door and met a huge hug from my office manager, she is a great lady, i'd do just about anything for her. by lunch time, i was laughing with my co-workers and felt almost like the old days and am looking forward to tomorrow.
I went for an endoscopy last week and will find out wednesday what the results of that were. this will let me know whether or not i will undergo another surgery. i really don't care either way as long as it doesn't hold me back from continuing my forward movement. it also would be nice to know if i will ever be able to eat solid food again, and whether or not i can get this feeding tube out. my 2 year old nephew accidently pulled on it the other the other day OWIE!! but i had to act as if i felt nothing so he wouldn't freak out, i've found that different ones are freaked by different things concerning this, some by my scars, some by the tube, some just because i don't eat food so i do my best not to scare anyone. this has been a bit challenging since i've finally counted up all my scars from drains. and there are 9 and two incisions brings my total to 11. and i don't remember any of it...weird. this is getting rather long so i will stop here...thank you all for your love and support
peace
hoops