The Worst Week of My Life

[Oak Kitten]

I have just been through the absolute worst week of my life. The details are too painful and personal and complicated to relate in detail. Over the past two years I have had to watch someone very close to me descend into hell, through no fault of their own. Because this person was afraid to ask for help, by the time we knew how dire the circumstances were, the situation had deteriorated very closely to the point of no return. Over the past year things were improving slowly. This week I was quite hopeful that everything was going to sort itself out, but the worst of all possible outcomes prevailed. I am still in shock. I can’t feel sorry for myself, because I have to get it together so I can help pick up the pieces, but right now it is difficult to even function. And although I said this has been the worst week, I fear it may get worse still. What little progress was painfully made over the last year has been effectively wiped out, and I don’t know if we will ever be able to bring this person back from the abyss of despair and pain under the prevailing circumstances. I just keep revisiting the events of the past week over and over in my mind to the point of physical and mental exhaustion. I know I can’t change what has happened, but I can’t tune it out and just carry on. It is what it is. I just had to vent. Thanks for listening.


Oak

[AceOn6]

Sending a virtual hug. Hang in there.

[Cardiffgal]

OK,

Sending you good thoughts, hugs and best wishes. Please see Janis' wisdom being currently used as my signature.

[Lin]

Thinking of you, and also sending a hug.

Lin xo

[Racheldiva]

All the very best to you and your friend.
x

[Des]

All the very best to you Oak Kitten.

Light some candles, take a nice hot soak in the tub, listen to some nice relaxing music and listen to what your heart tells you.:)

[Dee]

Oak Kitten,

Sorry to learn you're going through such a rough time. Wish there was something I could say to comfort you, but I realize that words on a screen can't bring that to you. Just know that I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.

Dee

[Rikki]

I agree with Dee.

[hoops]

Oak kitten, I don't really know what to say except i'm sorry this is happeneing and is so painful for you and your friend. i'll be praying for you both
pax
Noel

[DaveM]

Whatever the details I am sorry. I bow my head to you and to your friend.

And I will act on my ancestral family's motto: "Spero Meliora", Latin for "I hope for better things". I send you that hope; I send you that wish. And if there is more I can do you know where to find me.

[Oak Kitten]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words. They DO help. It is going to take some time, but I will adapt to these new circumstances and try to make the best of it. It is either that or surrendering to despair, and doing the latter will serve no one's best interest. Thanks for being such good friends.

Oak

[Denise]

Thinking of you also Oak Kitten and am at a loss for words ...
<<hug>>

[Agnes]

I, too, am thinking of you, Oak. Please keep us posted and know you are loved. We're right here for you.

[SongDragon]

Thinking of you, Oak Kitten. My thoughts are with you (even if my body is far far away).

~Song

[Bat]

Sometimes it seems as if life is cruel; it gangs up on us just when we think things are going smoothly and deals us a blow which leaves us reeling and in pain at the unfairness of it all.
Be brave for your friend, and come here to cry, as our shoulders are broad and strong for you.
Don't ever stop hoping.
Huge hugs,
Bat

[RedjackRyan]

<Big Hug> wishing you the best Oak Kitten.. Sorry its been such a rough ride for you.

[Marcia Drummergal]

We're always here for you. Sorry to hear how rough it has been for you. I hope it helps just knowing we are all thinking about you. Feel free to send an email if you want. My shoulders are larger than the rest of me! ;)

Marcia

[Kathleen Brogan]

Thinking of you. Don't forget to do something nice for you once in a while, keep us posted, and if you're a journal keeper, read about that awful week a year from now. I'd almost bet you'll feel proud of how you endured at this time of adversity.

[Oak Kitten]

Thank you, everyone. I will be on temporary duty at the Naval War College in Newport, RI for the next two weeks. I probably will not have access to the JIMB during this time. I just want to let you know so you don't get worried if you don't hear from me. I'll be back in May. Perhaps a change of venue and routine will help. I have to get on the road early tomorrow morining.

You all are the best.

Oak

[DaveM]

I'm with Belle Of The Blues Brogan. Make a point of being good to yourself. And if that doesn't work, blame it on Redjack (the word in the air is that he's handing out honorary eyepatches).

Hey, sorry Ca'pn but I know it ain't me fault. No excuse, Sir!!

[dragonlady]

I've been thinking about you...hope you are doing well.

-di

[BeckyVA]

Oak Kitten,
when you get a chance to read this, know that you are not alone. Many of us deal with things we never thought we could get through and yet, we find, in the most unusual unexpected places, a light...a glimmer of hope; friendships that need only be ignigted by the willingness to trust. The folks in this message board care for you simply because of common bonds. The more we believe we are different and suffering alone, the more we realize that we all jouney into deep, dark sometimes seemingly hopeless places with nowhere to turn. Trust is the foundation shared in allowing healing to begin. I know you don't really know me but like all the others before me, we are here for you as a sounding board or for strength. Burdens are lighter when the weight is shared. Remember to Honor yourself and the good you have brought to others. If I can help, please let me know. In the meantime, travel safe, nourish your body and rest well. Each day, a new beginning and one day further away from the past pain. Allow us to journey with you to peace. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and asking that you follow the light, the glimmer of hope that we can help. God Bless.
Becky

[CD Matthew]

I realize you won't be reading this for a while, Oak Kitten, but want you to know how touched I was to read of your situation. Good thoughts and prayers coming your way from Boston, Mass. Hope to see you back on here soon. Hang in there...

CD Matthew