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david uk
07-11-2006, 05:26 AM
As many of my friends here in Janisland know, I had a major breakdown/depression a year and a half ago. I had 5 or 6 months off work and for the past 6 months my employer has been excellent, offering me a graduated return to work on full pay. I have only ever done a few full days' work on full hours, but they have never questioned me and given me time off whenever I need it, again on full pay.

The depression has long since gone and I am in good spirits. However, I am still having panic attacks at work. I am looking for other roles in the company which would better suit my condition, supported by my managers, but in the meantime I continue to have panic attacks where I freeze in front of my computer and can't do anything.

It has come to the point where I may be referred down the path of "redeployment".. As I have a long term condition, I am protected here by the DDA (Disability Discrimination Act). So I can ask the company to find me another role... they are legally obliged to do so if they can. I am sure my employers will do everything they can to help, but they have a business to run and if after 8 weeks they cannot find anything they can terminate my contract. That would be a disaster for me financially.

Yesterday at work my manager Vicky took me away from my desk saying that my body language looked all wrong and she was worried about me. She gave me minor duties for the day and we agreed that I would see my doctor today. I did so and he told me to stay away from work for 2 weeks and gave me extra medication. He also said we needed to review the hours I work.

Sorry to have rambled on so much, but I am convinced that when I return to work we will have a discussion which will lead down the path of redeployment which I mentioned above. I realise I will not realistically be able to return to that job. So the future looks very uncertain materially.

However, maybe this could be a sign that I need to find my true path in life....

Just wanted to share :)

NinasSpaceChild
07-11-2006, 05:37 AM
Is there any other type of work you could look into David? Even perhaps a complete career change.

It sounds hellish to be going through all that. I don't think you should have to put yourself in that position.

Good luck and get some rest for a few days.

Dylan.

RedjackRyan
07-11-2006, 06:52 AM
Its nice that the company is being understanding of your situation, i'm sure they'll do their best to place you somewhere you can be happy and productive...but i'm with the spacechild, perhaps its time to look at different career paths?

david uk
07-11-2006, 02:13 PM
thanks Dylan and Ben

feeling very down about this tonight, but I will go to an advice centre tomorrow morning to enquire about my rights

dx

ps I actually just made myself laugh just now ... I made a spelling error and wrote that I was going to "enquire about my tights"... I corrected it tho:p

Denise
07-11-2006, 03:41 PM
Awww David - that's a good sign that you made yourself laugh.
I got a good laugh out of that too!!! LOL!

(Sort of reminds me of years ago when I was playing the lottery and went up to the store counter and asked for a "tingo bicket" instead of a bingo ticket! The clerk looked at me very quizzically and asked again what I wanted. And I REPEATED "tingo bicket"! Oh my......)

Let us know how it goes at the advice centre. . . .

greenpaul
07-11-2006, 05:13 PM
Wishing you well David, You have many friends here.

Paul

hoops
07-11-2006, 05:25 PM
David, I Wish You The Best Of Luck. Take It Easy On Yourself...you May Just Be Having A Minor Moment That Will Help You Look Closer At Your Job And Help You Put Yourself In A Better Position, Say Working Less Hours Or Fewer Days.. I'm Opn The Same Path My Friend And I Feel Like I Want To Jump Right Back In, But I Know I Can't. I Also Know I Need To Push My Self Enough To Make Sure I Continue Moving, You Don't Have To Go Forward Just Yet, Just Keep Going So That You Don't Go Backward. And You Are Probably Already Doing This, But Make Sure You Are Continuing To See Your Dr And You Therapist On A Regular Basis. I See My Dr 1 Time A Month And My Therapist 2 Times A Week...more If Needed. It Has Taken Me Years To Realize How Important Their Support And Their Helpful Point Of View Is. Mine Always Seem To See Things That I Miss. And Medication Adjustments Are Something That Will Always Be A Part Of Your Life, It Is Not A Step Back To Need A Med Adjust Ment, It's Just A Hormone Change. Good Luck To You , And Know That I Am Thinking About You And Praying For You
Peace
Noel

saxman
07-13-2006, 03:45 PM
i have a hard time reading long posts but i can help you and understand what you are saying if you email me i will answer. i understand depression hope you respond,

ponytail
07-14-2006, 11:11 AM
You're in my prayers, David. I've been disabled by serious depression myself and I know what you're going through. The most important thing is to take care of yourself.

BTW, Denise, "Tingo Bickett" would be a great name for a band!

Dee
07-14-2006, 01:08 PM
So how did things go today David?

Nosey Dee

Randy & Betty in Pa
07-14-2006, 02:50 PM
David my friend, Your continuing happiness and well being is in Betty and my prayers... Just want you to know that...

Our very best to you

R. from Pa

Eva
07-14-2006, 04:38 PM
Depression sucks!

Eva

hoops
07-14-2006, 04:59 PM
and it bites too

Eva
07-15-2006, 03:33 PM
And it's a pain in the ehm... rectum.

Eva

Agnes
07-16-2006, 01:05 AM
And it's a pain in the ehm... rectum.

Eva

But at least that's gone ;)

David, take care, my friend. You're in my thoughts.

(f)

GodSistah
07-16-2006, 01:57 PM
Keep ya head up, David!

:)

~Andrea~