hmmm ? i dont understand something

[saxman]

when everything is going so good ? i dont understand how to enjoy it.ive always seen the bad and had to deal with it. its hard for me to understand how to live with positive vibes . its ok today and i feel that i need to go under.its so hard to change my thinking. anyone relate?

[DaveM]

Mike....if you're doing something and it feels right, just go with it and accept that it's good. Think of the way you feel when you play your sax....it's ok to be happy. Indeed, that's why we're alive, surely.

Practice this....when you feel uncertainty while doing something you think "should" be making you happy, ask yourself if there's something you'd rather be doing. Or if there's any reason for you to feel guilt or anything of the sort over just having a good time. Chances are, you won't find one, and when you don't, just go on your way and enjoy.

[saxman]

That make sence tome .Things in my life seem to good to be real. so im the luckyest person in the world. i Know life goes in circlesi will except the good while it lasts. Thanks for the reminder.

[saxman]

from my most recent posts i see that i need to not post after i take my night meds . some of what i write seems even to me a bit wierd. so i will make an effort to not post after my nightly meds . everything in my life is good Thanks for the support i get . hope everyone enjoys the 4th fireworks. and for those of you like me that get freeked out when the noise of the fireworks hit Try listening to music . it helps to put a little Janis on the turntable and Listen instead of the bombs

[saxman]

i sometimes just need to read what i post to remind me of where i am . My Mom went into the emergancy room last night . and i sometimes just write to hide the fear i have of being alone . My dad is in a home my mom is hurting and im fine . its alot easier for me to joke or talk about how good my life is than say how it hurts .. the good thing is that i know that im not alone and nobody here judges me for what i say. and everyone that knows me helps . i try to hide and life finds me . when i said everything is ok i mean it . that sometimes bothers me knowing that everything around me , fam wise is falling i will survive.This is a good thing i think?its time to play my sax and enjoy. playing ,music is and has always been my great escape